Stories like this (click through and read it) are perfect examples for highlighting the dehumanizing system which passes for God’s holy church. What does this church think of people with clinical depression, especially when it gets in the way of things they do in the service?
“We choose to not let the reality of clinical mental illness, hurt and abuse change the culture to which we choose to partake in the beauty of the physical, spiritual, and emotion connections of community.
In large, people do partner with lies of depression, of self importance in community relationships, and of projection of past experience.”
– in an email from a pastor to blogger Becca Rose regarding some issues she raised about the service she attended
In other words, “We try not to let reality get in the way of our pre-established narrative. Conform to our system!” Humanity has no place in such so-called churches; you must become a copy. Behave as you are supposed to, even if it is not safe for you. How dare you feel pain! How dare you need space!
These are the words of death, not of life. This is the temple of the Accuser, not Christ. As Meshuggah puts it,
“Heed – it commands, heed my will
Bleed – it says, bleed you will”
The pastor who wrote this email suggests that freedom from depression is just a matter of choice. If we succumb to this, if we let this life-denying lie rule us, then we internalize the systems of our own deletion. What would this pastor have Becca do if she were to authentically try to choose healing from God? What if after that choice, she was still depressed? If she bought into the lie that she had really been healed, then the only choice for her is to deny the reality of her own pain, to deny the reality of herself. She must convince herself that SHE IS THE ILLUSION. She disappears, and what remains in her place is an empty shell of rehearsed motions and expressions, a complex social language game devoid of further meaning.
We must unilaterally reject and condemn such a church as this. The spirit of God is not in it.
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